Crunnnnnnnnnnch

Man oh man... my poor phone. Last night I was sitting on the couch and I heard it fall out of my pocket and between the sectional. I opened the recliner to find it and heard "crunnnnnnnnnch." UGH Sure enough it's dented on the back and the front is messed up. I'm thinking I'll just take it back to Verizon and try and get a new one under the insurance. That's why I pay it right? Let's just hope couch incidents are covered. lol

Breakfast - slice of leftover pizza

Fruit aisle please

I haven't had good fruit here for a while. I think I'm going to have to do a mid week produce trip. I'm finding fruit has gone soft or is pretty bruised by the end of the regular "shopping week." I'm tossing much of it. Not only does that leave me fruitless for a while but it's like tossing a big wad of cash away!

Breakfast - 1 egg, 2 soft wheat toast, 6oz strawberry yogurt

Meltdown in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1.............. I told the kids we'd go out to lunch today with some birthday money I got. Went upstairs to change and saw the mess of all messes. I had a complete meltdown. Not only did we NOT go out to eat but they spent the afternoon cleaning their buns off. I held off on eating for a while myself then fell into my "if no one else cares about me why should I?" and ate a HUGE bowl of pasta and some cheese.

Lunch - whole wheat spaghetti with meat sauce, american cheese

There goes the day! Ordered out pizza and junk. Whatever.

Dinner - cheese pizza, mozz sticks and potato skin

Total Calories: 2473

Move over please

Around 2am J came into bed with us. I just moved on over and made room. When I got up to go to the bathroom he wiggled over to the middle. He was so cute. Like, "here mom, I'll make room for you." lol When D got up he slid him over to his side. Then around 5:30 E showed up. I just moved over again. I got up to go to the bathroom again and had her wiggle over to the middle. lol

I got up before everyone and watched a show I DVR'd yesterday. Then did some dishes and checked things online. Once the kids started to trickle down I made them chocolate chip muffins, which I did not eat, and got them some milk to go with it.

Breakfast - 2 eggs, 2 slice light soft wheat bread, 1 apple

Lunch - whole wheat pasta with meat and mushroom sauce, salad and kraft free italian

Dinner - 2 soft tacos

Workout - 35 mins elliptical (381 cals)

Snack - 2 more soft tacos

Total Calories: 1497

Look at what you've done!

Hahahaha! D tried to bend up J's training wheels today. I started him riding off balanced and then let go. He went about 4 rotations before tipping to the training wheels. He got off and pointed to his bike saying "Look at what you've done!" So D said are you angry or happy? J replied "Angry!" and tipped his bike over. It was so hilarious. D bent them back a little but not all the way. I'm sure he'll be on a 2 wheeler at or before 4 like E was. oy!

Today was day 1 of Michelle's birthday week. I've decided my birthday has almost always sucked. It was usually during family vacations. I'd get school clothes for gifts. My dad always forgets me. It's just not a big group of happy memories for me. So this year is the big 3-0. I'M making it big for me. Ok, not big - but hopefully "not sucky" is big enough. ;o)

We did a cookout with a joint cake for me, SIL and SIL's fiance tonight. I ate terrible but skipped out on cake. I let myself be talked into burgers and that was dangerous once I thought of all the calories they were packing! Oh and MIL got cheese dogs because she knows I love them. DOH! I'm glad I brought salad!

Breakfast - bagel with 1/3 less fat philly

Snack - BBQ fritos

Lunch - Subway: 3" of a BLT on wheat and roasted chicken noodle and veggie soup

Dinner - 2 cheese dogs, 1.5 burger, salad

Total Calories: 1784

My legs are still crazy sore from weeding Saturday morning. I basically bent in half to pick them. So I stretched everything. I meet mom at the gym tomorrow. I hope to be ok on the elliptical. It not I may need to hop on the bike for a night.

Sunday Sunday Sundaaaaaaay

Track day again but this time I'm not working!! Yesterday I had to install some vinyl lettering for a customer so it wasn't a "real" day off. It is day 2 of Fun Ford Weekend and D is already there with his mom and "C2." Not our son but a friend. C2 was runner up yesterday and we're hoping to improve on that today... um or his mom. A win and r/u would be awesome.

Anyway, I'm making milk chocolate chip cookies for today and I've set aside about 1 tray to get walnuts. I'm not a fan but I figured I'd spruce them up a bit. :o) I hope to stay on track with eating. I couldn't get online yesterday so it killed me not knowing if those donuts killed me. Thankfully they didn't. That was pure luck.

Snack - 1/2 cookie hot out of the oven

Breakfast - 1/4 of an apple

Lunch - burger and onion rings

Snack - lemonade, small piece of steak tip and fritos

Dinner - pasta with meat sauce

Total Calories: 1477

LOTS of walking today. Quick walking at that. C2 went to the finals again with a runner up position! He was parked WAY down at top end. lol Back and forth, back and forth. I knew walking was better for me so I declined the many rides I was offered.

Rude Awakening

I woke up at 6 totally ready to be up but wanted to sleep more. I went back to sleep and didn't wake up til 9! I was glad to be awake though. I had 3 nightmares in that time and I had a wicked headache from it.

Breakfast - a waffle with PB, peach

Did some weeding. I hate wedding. Got it all into a barrel though and it's mostly done. Still have to rake the mulch and get all the twigs up. I hate the yard being so ugly.

Snack - 6oz light yogurt and small banana

Don't even ask about lunch. I made a big crock of sauce. I couldn't wait to make pasta and had a couple bowls of just sauce then had 2 rolls with it. lol It's been a long time since I made sauce.

Lunch - ground beef and mushrooms with crushed tomatoes and 2 light wheat rolls

Snack - 2 donuts

Dinner - grilled chicken and some BBQ fritos

Total Calories: 1555

Backwards Scale

This has been a long time coming. After a lucky streak of maintaining with my poor choices I have finally seen a gain. I'm going to try something different for my food log today and see if I can't turn this around immediately. I know breakfast looks boring since it's often the same but I enjoy it and I know it'll fill me up.

Breakfast - 2 eggs, 1 slice whole wheat toast and a peach

I just got off the phone with the interviewer for that job. No dice. The shift they are hiring for is 12:30-4:30. The after school childcare is about $50/kid. With 3 school aged kids that's $150 plus childcare for J. It'd cost me money to work. That seems just a bit counter productive. She did put me down for a call back should a 5 or 6 pm start come up again. Here's to hoping. For now it's back to the job hunt.

Snack - berry smoothie

Lunch - chicken, rice and carrots dish made with broth, peas

Snack - Zone Perfect Bar

Dinner - grilled chicken salad, roasted rotini soup

Snack - onion rings

Total Calories: 1384

It'll all get better in time...

I know my eating triggers and still walk right into them. I'm PMS-y. I didn't get the job call back I was expecting. My potential babysitter isn't returning my calls. And surprise surprise I'm financially stressed out.

I was doing so great until around 3pm. I had a plan and I was sticking to it. Then suddenly it all came crashing in on me at once.

Breakfast - 2 eggs, 1 slice whole wheat toast and a peach

Snack - small banana with 1 tsp PB on it

Lunch - 1 cup roasted chicken rotini soup with a whole wheat pita pizza

Snack - part of a leftover sub, cream cheese and crackers, chocolate chips

The day isn't so far gone I can't recover if I go to the gym. I just don't feel like it. This is an odd and unwelcome feeling. :o( The one good thing is that I got a little proactive and called the HR dept regarding that job. I apologized for having such a short time available for a phone interview and asked if she had time tomorrow at all. I will be talking with her at 11:30 (EST). So please send positive thoughts.

Dinner - small portion pasta and sauce, salad with kraft free

Workout - 30 mins elliptical (329 cals)

Snack - Zone Perfect Bar

Total Calories: 1962

Long time no see...

Good morning. I haven't logged onto the internet much since Friday morning. We had a hugely crazy weekend.

Saturday was the big night show at the track and C had karate in the morning. We got home after midnight. I'll share a funny story about that later when I have more time. Then Sunday D raced in 2 classes and C raced his junior as well. We got home around 11.

Then Monday we had our company. We haven't seen D's aunt and cousin since 11/11/07. I missed them both like crazy. It was a bit wild since his cousin is the only kid in their house and our 4 wanted all of her attention. lol She was quite overwhelmed and annoyed with them I'm sure. They arrived around 3 and stayed until about 7:30 last night.

I was so far off the wagon those 4 days I couldn't even see it! I hopped back on today though and will need to step it up in order to lose. I am cutting back my calories to what they were when I started out. Let's see how it goes.

For now I'm running out the door to take the kids to the Veggie Tales movie. See ya!

Breakfast - bagel and 1/3 less fat philly with 1/2 banana

Snack - popcorn and some dark chocolate

Snack - 2 hot dogs

Dinner - chili cheese fries

Snack - brownies

Total Calories: 2046

Big weekend coming up

Good morning. I am down a lb this week. I am attributing that solely to the fact that I worked out last night. I have a lot of work ahead of me to get back on track with fruits and veggies while keeping fat down. I still haven't done my regular shopping but I grabbed essentials for today when I left the gym. I made sure to pick up some fruits to have on hand too.

Today will be a day of cleaning. Monday we have overnight company coming. I am very excited. D's aunt and cousin are coming up from TX. They moved last November and talking on the phone just isn't the same. Today may be my last chance to get the guest room, bathroom and linens ready.

Tonight we've got track. Tomorrow C has karate in the morning then it's the big night show at the track. Then of course Sunday, Sunday Sundaaaaaaaay is track day. I need to be there early so we have to miss church.

Breakfast - Special K cinnamon pecan, milk

Cross your fingers

Today as I was paying our bills I was glad to be able to pay a couple week early on some things. I also realized that the "big" things don't show up til the end of the month though. I needed to really hunker down and start looking for work. This race season hasn't been the most reliable. We're not in trouble but it could be better.

So back story - I applied at a company back in February I think. I wanted the job so bad I could taste it. Starting pay was good and they offered evening hours. The work was similar to things I have done in the past with more challenge. I waited and waited and felt pretty rejected when they didn't call back. Nor did the other dozen jobs I put in for. Or so I thought.

There was an issue with my voice mail system. I didn't know I had one. I thought my messages would come through on my machine but Comcast's voice mail kicks in before my machine can. I had no idea! I found out on accident this June. I had over 130 messages that had collected over 6 months. One was from this company. I was sick over my missed chance. Until today - I got a second chance! They had a job listed on Monster again so I put in for it.

Breakfast - cheerios with 2% milk

Lunch - leftover chinese

Dinner - chicken and potatoes

Workout - 60 mins elliptical (642 cals)

Snack - Zone Bar

Total Calories: 1927

Day 30

I made it. I might not have been 100% on track but I'm still logging it all & owning it.

I wanted to share a funny pic and story from back in June. We took the kids on a Boston Duck Tour. It was a Christmas gift from D's family. I just found the photo code to find it online.

We got stuck in major traffic (in Boston - whodda thunk it right?) and practically ran from the parking garage to the Duck Tour counter. Then there was a line. I was stressing out because the email confirmation clearly stated "no refunds" on it. So I finally get to the front and ask her where to go. She says "oh they just pulled out a few minutes ago." AS WE WERE IN LINE! ugh The worst part - we ran past our boat as it was boarding to go get a ticket and our email was our ticket.

So long story short we had to pay $10/per person to move our ticket to a later time. We had to wait an hour and half for the next available boat. We hung out in the Museum of Science doing anything free since we brought little cash with us. Think the kids were tired???

Brunch - popcorn at the movies

Dinner - Chinese food

No real idea on Total Calories today since nothing was measured. I'm sure it was over 2000 though. I go back to the gym tomorrow night. Mom and I are switching to Thursday nights now.

Day 29

Got some news over the weekend I forgot to share. My SIL has set a wedding date. I guess the big day is going to be 5-9-09. Brides have every right to chose their special day. This one seems like an odd choice (a day after her dad's birthday and will fall on Mother's Day weekend) without knowing why they chose the date.

Anyhow, none of that matters I'm just rambling. My point is, that puts her wedding 9 months away and me 100 lbs heavier than I want to be. I am going to HAVE to get diligent with myself if this is going to happen for then. I don't think I will lose it all but I want more than 1/2 of that gone.

My desire is to hit my goal weight for our 10th anniversary on 12-10-09. Since we had a VERY small wedding I've always wanted to do a vow renewal and shin dig at 10 years (ok I said 5 at first but decided to wait for "a decade"). I would love to take a "just us" trip & go snorkeling, para-sailing or something. I don't want all this extra baggage on me!

Breakfast - 6oz cherry yogurt

Lunch - Pasta and Pizza

Dinner - peppercorn pork in the crock, mashed potatoes and corn

Total Calories: 1821

WHY is pizza so deliverable? That's my goal next week... no food deliveries! I've been so thrown off by summer vacation it's crazy. Shopping is so routine for me usually but with 4 kids trailing behind it's just not something I want to do. Once they are in school it's a piece of cake. I need to set a new "summer shopping" day and time so it becomes routine then too.

Day 28

We had a great day! We took the kids and headed up to ME for a beach day. When we got there D suggested we hit York's Wild Kingdom. I'd never been there so I didn't know what to expect.

Two thumbs up for having a ton of stuff for smaller kinds! Many many rides were 48" and under. N was like right on the line so he was able to go on the small rides and some of the big rides. C was a little annoyed most of the rides were too small for him. He was happy he was able to ride alone on stuff the other 3 needed an adult for though.

We stayed there for about 6 hours. We got stuck in about 4 rain showers that moved through quickly. We took shelter under trees or in the arcade. We walked down the street for lunch and just missed one. We even got to do paddle boats 3 and 3. I took E and N. D took C and J. We had a blast!

After we packed up there we headed over to the beach for some evening fun in the waves. All the kids got knocked over at some point which was pretty funny. D stayed at the tide line and I went in the water. So we had quick access to all the kids. J was hysterical... kept running in and out. E would grab onto me for fear of knocking over again. C and N were riding the waves in body surfing. Def need rafts or boogie boards next time!

Breakfast - leftover steak sub

Lunch - clam strips and chowder

Dinner - cheeseburger and waffles

Total Calories - 1676

Don't ask about dinner.... I had to rummage for food because everything was frozen. lol Before our adventure to York I swung by my gym and got a new key fob for entry. I have had no lunch finding my keys.

Day 27

Breakfast - english muffin with jelly and some bacon

Lunch - hot dog

Dinner - 1/2 steak and pepper sub and some pizza

Total Calories: 1887

This kind of eating really sucks because you see just how LITTLE food you get for big calories.

Day 26

Didn't expect to be at the track all day. C didn't have karate. Eating was quite out of hand (fat-wise) and not well preplanned. I stayed in my calorie ranger though, which surprised me when I plugged it all in at SP. I think my keys are gone gone. I can't find them anywhere. I'll have to go Monday and get a new key fob for gym access.

Breakfast - english muffin with butter, homefries

Lunch - chili cheese fries (yeah - I know)

Dinner - burger king: cheesy tots and burger

Total Calories: 1691

Day 25

By some chance of a miracle I haven't gained this week. I guess all the constant moving at VBS from 5-8:30 assisted in that. Tonight is our last night. I found out dinner is sandwiches and chips. At least I can figure this in before hand and work around it. I also have no appts between D getting home from work and leaving for VBS so I intend to fit in a trip to the gym.

Breakfast - 2 eggs, 2 whole wheat toast, 2 rings pineapple

Lunch - BLT on whole wheat with a cup of veg barley soup

Dinner - 1.5 ham and cheese, 1/2 PB+J, chips, a pickle and jell-o

Total Calories: 1592